My Thoughts Runneth Over

Thick as a motha They’re yelling "damn!" as I strut by Brothers looking with delight "Hey Ma" and "Damn you fly" I love this weight is on me Don't dare hate on me I'm catching em’ right and left With this beautiful shape on me I'm country thick Indeed I am A southern brick house chick Mash potatoes and ham Fried fish and biscuits Collard green and cornbread They wanna lay on Mommas lap They wanna get spoon-fed I’m deliciously built Don’t mind me as I strut by Thicker than a snicker Confidence in the sky

Contaminated Blood She became an artist at ten years of age. She went from cartwheeling, hopscotching and jump roping to a land of make-believe so she would not have to deal with reality. One moment forever, change the path of this pure funny brown girl. He took for her, he stole from her, he forever changed her and he contaminated her. A scene that still replays in her head when she’s down, hurting or fighting her way through a storm even though it was 40 years ago. He called himself her stepfather but she called him the monster that some girls only imagined that was hiding under their bed or in their closet. Hers was real life and the only way she could escape is to give her a gift she now knows God blessed her with to help her along her debris-filled path. She was the third daughter of her mothers, the funny one, the outgoing one, the one with a million-dollar smile. It is sad how someone would want to change the profile of a person. Her she was a ten forever changed, an intro...

When the chaos is too much When you losing focus losing touch When things a no longer making sense When the smallest of things seem intense It is time to take time When everyone has something to say When you cannot get the words on when you pray When you want it all too just go away When you want to leave and want to stay It is time to free your mind Retreat, just leave, with you just be Go and deal with you, just breathe Don’t worry about who says what to who Worry about healing, worry about you To heal you have to be real with it Pray and be with it as long as it takes To start healing you have to acknowledge the ache The frustration, the anger the heartbreak Stop putting pain to bed and allow it to wake And deal with it Shaye 2019

Be careful with me I’m not what you’re used to I’m not just any woman   So watch what you do I’m not full of insecurities   I’m not searching for something I lost I cannot be bought   But I do indeed cost It’s nothing monetary   No amount is that high I’m on a different level   A whole different vibe I’ll bring you joy Smothered in peace   And when you’re full of pain I’ll give you release I’ll fill your belly   Your heart and your soul A lot of men are afraid of me Because they were never allowed to let go Never allowed to lower their guard   And relax and just be I’ll cause a rise in your spirit   So be careful when dealing with me Some men are not ready   For the love I give To lessen their worries   To be able to comfortably live So watch yourself   When you’re thinking of this beauty   You will run into many other women   But never one like me - Shaye 2019

My Sister I want to pray for my Sister girl Who doesn’t really share She’s going through some things And right now life seems unfair I want to pray for her trails May they soon meet their end Lord bless her with endurance Patience and plenty of strength She may seem like all is well But that’s only on the outside But if you listen to her in the quiet You can hear her spirit cry Therefore, I am lifting her up As high as I can Lord and if you don’t mind Just talking my sister's hand And seeing her through All that worries all that hurt I’m sure she will fight the fight And do all the work Lord allow her to feel What I already see That will battle will come to an end And you will restore peace -Shaye